Out to Space Year Six: the Intensity

April 2009March 2010

At the basement of my house, directing the final project with classmates at College of Fine Arts, August 2009 Photo: Stilgherrian
At the basement of my house with College of Fine Arts classmates, directing the final project, August 2009 Photo: Stilgherrian

The previous year of Out to Space was a transition to study at College of Fine Arts. Most of the posts in the year six were still about the education that got very intense. It wasn’t just the posts about the compulsory final project, but the subject I chose to do was also about the mental illness I had been dealing with—depression.

The school prepared us for the project in the second semester from the script development to preproduction. Then the final semester, we got to shoot the film and did the postproduction. But what I liked the most about it was that they forced us to report the progress on their student blog. It came handy for me (probably not for other students). And I published those posts later on this blog. It was the only and the most comprehensive behind-the-scene blog series I’ve done. There hasn’t been a chance I’d do something like that again, sadly.

In between semesters, I took another workshop with Metro Screen, Live Streaming Multi-cam course. However, I didn’t blog about the making. Stil has more about it. It was a busy year.

Other than the posts about the school, there was hardly a motivation to go out the shoot photos and I was done with the dump series from the previous years as well as other photo subjects in the early years. And the blog started to fill in with automated weekly tweets.

2009 was also one of the toughest years in my life. I had no income and relied on the dole to live by. The study was really stressful. I had to work on the script about depression that I went to the deep dark place. It was the year that exposed that side of myself the most.

By the end of 2009, the hard work on the project paid off. I pushed the boundary in sound production. The final project finished with the bang and the mental condition slowly recovered. But it was also the end of the long and the first relationship.

By March 2010, I officially graduated but this space didn’t seem to go anywhere. It might have needed a break. Looking back how intense the year was. There were ambitious goals and they archived. What an exhausting learning curve!