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Love Post 2042

Love Post 2042 from ApostrophePong on Vimeo.

2042 is the postcode of Newtown/Enmore, NSW, Australia where I have spent half of adult life for almost ten years. It is one of the best places in the world to live in and it will be one of the things I will be missing the most.

This video is a series of photographs I took in a Summer 2006 at Bank Hotel, next to Newtown Station. Folded window panes reflect commuters passing by an old post on King Street. Something is living in oblivion.

This is the last video I make for Kino Sydney, the last video in Australia. However, there are still some materials I shot in Sydney to make some videos and they probably will be produced when the time comes and I settle down a bit in Bangkok.

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My Reflection in 2009, a Lift and a Climb

2009 has been an extremely remarkable year for me. It was not a great start in the first two months. I was still broke and depressed.

To be able to get a small amount of money to live on from the government, Centrelink sent me to a job search training session for a few weeks. It was supposed to be empowering, but instead, it was painful to attend it. I kept asking myself why I was in a room full of desperate people. It must have been the punishment from my fucked-up life. I did not know where I belonged.

There was an emotional breakdown during in the end of 2008 and it passed on to the following year. Since my mental illness prolonged, my GP prescribed me a medication. The very first day I started taking the pill, it was very hard to accept the fact that my brainís chemical had been dependent on it and my body had adjusted to its side effects, at least, for a while.

And it went down slope to the bottom before I was able to climb up from the hole. One day while I was walking home with disappointment, despair and hopelessness, there was nothing that I could see that the situation would be any better. I was sick and tired of the world and myself and there was nothing I could do. I could not deny that there was a thought to end it all.

Even though I had a couple of photographic projects with me, I found it was difficult for me to pursue in the medium. In fact, I have reached the photographic goals with these two projects. One was a slideshow exhibition Metropolitan Skin, which was pretty much the summary of my photography subjects: street candid, urban landscape and Sydneyís diversity. And I snapped Mardi Gras in the full circle from the float construction to the aftermath.

Unless I could effort to upgrade the camera kit or find a right way to earn from it, the camera phone is the preferred device to shoot still images these days. It is easier to interact them with the world than a DSLR camera. Less control but more spontaneity.

I have been using photographs to create videos anyway but this year it is the moving images and sound that I have been focusing on. When the second semester commenced, I started to ambitious projects with rules of constraints. State of Emergency was made in Making Digital Hologram, playing with eye illusion. In Production Workshop, I designed Transcendence to make an abstract video from a street shot and each element was from that one-minute source clip. On the other hand, Blindfold was produced in Sound Construction 2 as a narrative surround sound without dialogue or any visual aid.

The two High Distinctions from those pieces were the reward from the hard works. But the class I found the most useful was created impromptu to help the Master student preparing the Major Project in the following semester. The very first session was when I came across an idea of a short film about depression I had a vision from a dream early in the year.

The development of the story, Memory of You | Reflection of Me, was a painful experience when I had to revisit those dark periods of mine, especially, it had just happened to me for the past six months. But I took it as a therapy for myself and hopefully it would help someone else as well.

I set the par in project very high: an invisible main character, a cast with disability, complex post-production with surround sound and DVD production. It was very stressful process since I had to do almost everything by myself and help other production as well. I fell sick in the shooting and crew got the cold from me. My hard drive went missing since I forgot it on the train after a tiring assessment

Nevertheless, it paid off with the work I envisioned, excellent comments from many people, a Distinction and Computers Now for Best Video Award from COFA Annual 09. Most of all, I found myself again.

I also reconciled with my dysfunctional childhood when I went back to psychologist sessions. Now I figure out what I am capable of and want to pursue in this direction. I have some editing jobs and there is a new project I am developing for a grant to make it.

Looking back in the beginning of the year and seeing how it progressed to this point makes me realise how 2009 has been a long but rewarding one. And I am pretty sure I am not the only one who has been struggling in life for the past few years. Although there are still a lot of works to do and some issues to fix in the unforeseeable future, at least, now I am aware of the future I want to be and there are always a possibility for it. I hope you are finding the ways too.

Are We There Yet?

Looking up to yourself


‘Pong walks on a foot path and notices his reflection on a ceiling of a building. He looks up at it and thinks.

Head #1 (V.O.)

It keeps coming back to me.

Head #2 (V.O.)

That’s okay. You have to know how to deal with it. You need to deal with it.

HEAD #1 (V.O.)

That little boy. I’m not that little boy any more but I don’t know how to be someone else. I’ve never been anyone except the torn little boy.

HEAD #2 (V.O.)

Yes, you can be whomever you like.

HEAD #1 (V.O.)

I don’t know what I like.

HEAD #2 (V.O.)

Yes, you do. Just look inside.

‘Pong starts taking self-portraits with his camera phone.

HEAD #1 (V.O.)

But it is empty.

HEAD #2 (V.O.)

That means you can fill it up.

HEAD #1 (V.O.)

I need directions.

HEAD #2 (V.O.)

You are going the right way and you have come this far on your own with some helps. You need to lead your own way. Just think about your goals and focus on them. You’ll get there.

Someone looks at ‘Pong as he is acting strange on the street. He finishes his self-portraits anyway.

HEAD #2 (V.O.)

You WILL be there.

‘Pong keeps walking on the street.

Fish Bowl in Enmore

It is just a regular afternoon on the local patch, Enmore Road. Walking pass and looking through glass windows, life simply goes on. Everyone has their own purpose in a day, kind of. It may finish with or without the missions accomplished.

No one cares if there was no tomorrow. Just now…the moment is trapped in invisible illusions.


A woman waiting for a bus on Enmore Road.

Fruit Picking

Shopping in an organic green grocer.


A bored shop keeper entertaining himself with his coffee.

For Lease

Wanna do some business with me?

Strawberry Man

A foreman renovating @Newtown RSL Club.

Mystery man