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Memory at Sprout Film Festival

Sprout Film Festival 2012

When I made the film for the Master degree project, Memory of You | Reflection of Me, at COFA, it was more about mental illness. It is an honour that is selected in Sprout Film Festival 2012, which the subject is developmental disabilities:

By presenting films of artistry and intellect, the festival hopes to reinforce accurate portrayals of people with developmental disabilities and expose the general public to important issues facing this population. The goal is an enjoyable and enlightening experience that will help breakdown stereotypes, promoting a greater acceptance of differences and awareness of similarities.

It is held at the Metropolitan Museum of Art, New York City. The film is scheduled in Program 6: Friday, April 27 7pm-adult content: nudity, violence, strong language,…

Memory for the Public

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When Tony Hollingsworth asked me if he could post this film on his blog, Black Dog Ride, raising awareness of depression, initially, I turned him down. But after I wrote the blog post last evening with tears in my eyes, Stilgherrian reminded me that I told him I would consider open it up to promote the EXiST fundraising campaign.

The only reason I did not put the short film to the public was some film festival rule about the works on the Internet. However, I only shopped around the festivals with no entry fee which they did not restrict to that rule. Most of all, it will be fair to let the supporters see how I intend to make a trilogy mental health on DASS (Depression Anxiety Stess Scale). And to see the first one is the best way for it.

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My Film at Fordham Fest

For the ones in UK, Memory of You | Reflection of Me will be screened in Strawberry Shorts Film Marquee as a part of Fordham Music Festival this year. I believe this the first time the short film will be premiered outside Australia. Originally, I submitted the film for Strawberry Fair in Cambridge but unfortunately, it has been officially cancelled. However, the Fair organiser is invited to have their own stage in the Festival.

Apart from the film being shown amongst with other interesting film, I find it is quite amazing to see local communities support each other. I have done event management in the past life in Thailand but most of them were commercial and they were not cheap. My bosses were willing to slash their fees when it came to community works and they actually somehow made us proud.

If anyone has a chance to be at Fordham Music Festival, please check out the Strawberry Fair Stage. The films in the program are very interesting to see. To be specific, my film is scheduled on Programme 9, 7 August, 10.30pm-12.30am.

Reel to Real

Real to Real

I would like to think that somehow I still am a Buddhist even though it has been a while since the last time I committed Thai Theravada Buddhist ritual, possibly on my Birthday in Thailand years ago. It is the philosophy not the practice that matters. And it shows on my works.

My latest short film, Memory of You | Reflection of Me, is selected for Reel to Real Short Film Competition. The competition is a part of Buddhist Film Festival as one of events in Buddhist Festival Month. The film will be screened along with other eight short films in the theme “It’s not about me”. The filmmaker will get a chance to talk about their film after each screening. And there will be the judge award as well as the audience award.


2:15 pm – 4 pm, Saturday, 15th May 2010

The Footbridge Theatre, Glebe

Please check their website for full program and purchase tickets

My Reflection in 2009, a Lift and a Climb

2009 has been an extremely remarkable year for me. It was not a great start in the first two months. I was still broke and depressed.

To be able to get a small amount of money to live on from the government, Centrelink sent me to a job search training session for a few weeks. It was supposed to be empowering, but instead, it was painful to attend it. I kept asking myself why I was in a room full of desperate people. It must have been the punishment from my fucked-up life. I did not know where I belonged.

There was an emotional breakdown during in the end of 2008 and it passed on to the following year. Since my mental illness prolonged, my GP prescribed me a medication. The very first day I started taking the pill, it was very hard to accept the fact that my brains chemical had been dependent on it and my body had adjusted to its side effects, at least, for a while.

And it went down slope to the bottom before I was able to climb up from the hole. One day while I was walking home with disappointment, despair and hopelessness, there was nothing that I could see that the situation would be any better. I was sick and tired of the world and myself and there was nothing I could do. I could not deny that there was a thought to end it all.

Even though I had a couple of photographic projects with me, I found it was difficult for me to pursue in the medium. In fact, I have reached the photographic goals with these two projects. One was a slideshow exhibition Metropolitan Skin, which was pretty much the summary of my photography subjects: street candid, urban landscape and Sydneys diversity. And I snapped Mardi Gras in the full circle from the float construction to the aftermath.

Unless I could effort to upgrade the camera kit or find a right way to earn from it, the camera phone is the preferred device to shoot still images these days. It is easier to interact them with the world than a DSLR camera. Less control but more spontaneity.

I have been using photographs to create videos anyway but this year it is the moving images and sound that I have been focusing on. When the second semester commenced, I started to ambitious projects with rules of constraints. State of Emergency was made in Making Digital Hologram, playing with eye illusion. In Production Workshop, I designed Transcendence to make an abstract video from a street shot and each element was from that one-minute source clip. On the other hand, Blindfold was produced in Sound Construction 2 as a narrative surround sound without dialogue or any visual aid.

The two High Distinctions from those pieces were the reward from the hard works. But the class I found the most useful was created impromptu to help the Master student preparing the Major Project in the following semester. The very first session was when I came across an idea of a short film about depression I had a vision from a dream early in the year.

The development of the story, Memory of You | Reflection of Me, was a painful experience when I had to revisit those dark periods of mine, especially, it had just happened to me for the past six months. But I took it as a therapy for myself and hopefully it would help someone else as well.

I set the par in project very high: an invisible main character, a cast with disability, complex post-production with surround sound and DVD production. It was very stressful process since I had to do almost everything by myself and help other production as well. I fell sick in the shooting and crew got the cold from me. My hard drive went missing since I forgot it on the train after a tiring assessment

Nevertheless, it paid off with the work I envisioned, excellent comments from many people, a Distinction and Computers Now for Best Video Award from COFA Annual 09. Most of all, I found myself again.

I also reconciled with my dysfunctional childhood when I went back to psychologist sessions. Now I figure out what I am capable of and want to pursue in this direction. I have some editing jobs and there is a new project I am developing for a grant to make it.

Looking back in the beginning of the year and seeing how it progressed to this point makes me realise how 2009 has been a long but rewarding one. And I am pretty sure I am not the only one who has been struggling in life for the past few years. Although there are still a lot of works to do and some issues to fix in the unforeseeable future, at least, now I am aware of the future I want to be and there are always a possibility for it. I hope you are finding the ways too.