The previous year of Out to Space was a transition to study at College of Fine Arts. Most of the posts in the year six were still about the education that got very intense. It wasn’t just the posts about the compulsory final project, but the subject I chose to do was also about the mental illness I had been dealing with—depression.
The school prepared us for the project in the second semester from the script development to preproduction. Then the final semester, we got to shoot the film and did the postproduction. But what I liked the most about it was that they forced us to report the progress on their student blog. It came handy for me (probably not for other students). And I published those posts later on this blog. It was the only and the most comprehensive behind-the-scene blog series I’ve done. There hasn’t been a chance I’d do something like that again, sadly.
Other than the posts about the school, there was hardly a motivation to go out the shoot photos and I was done with the dump series from the previous years as well as other photo subjects in the early years. And the blog started to fill in with automated weekly tweets.
2009 was also one of the toughest years in my life. I had no income and relied on the dole to live by. The study was really stressful. I had to work on the script about depression that I went to the deep dark place. It was the year that exposed that side of myself the most.
By March 2010, I officially graduated but this space didn’t seem to go anywhere. It might have needed a break. Looking back how intense the year was. There were ambitious goals and they archived. What an exhausting learning curve!
By presenting films of artistry and intellect, the festival hopes to reinforce accurate portrayals of people with developmental disabilities and expose the general public to important issues facing this population. The goal is an enjoyable and enlightening experience that will help breakdown stereotypes, promoting a greater acceptance of differences and awareness of similarities.
When Tony Hollingsworth asked me if he could post this film on his blog, Black Dog Ride, raising awareness of depression, initially, I turned him down. But after I wrote the blog post last evening with tears in my eyes, Stilgherrian reminded me that I told him I would consider open it up to promote the EXiST fundraising campaign.
The only reason I did not put the short film to the public was some film festival rule about the works on the Internet. However, I only shopped around the festivals with no entry fee which they did not restrict to that rule. Most of all, it will be fair to let the supporters see how I intend to make a trilogy mental health on DASS (Depression Anxiety Stess Scale). And to see the first one is the best way for it.
For the ones in UK, Memory of You | Reflection of Me will be screened in Strawberry Shorts Film Marquee as a part of Fordham Music Festival this year. I believe this the first time the short film will be premiered outside Australia. Originally, I submitted the film for Strawberry Fair in Cambridge but unfortunately, it has been officially cancelled. However, the Fair organiser is invited to have their own stage in the Festival.
Apart from the film being shown amongst with other interesting film, I find it is quite amazing to see local communities support each other. I have done event management in the past life in Thailand but most of them were commercial and they were not cheap. My bosses were willing to slash their fees when it came to community works and they actually somehow made us proud.
If anyone has a chance to be at Fordham Music Festival, please check out the Strawberry Fair Stage. The films in the program are very interesting to see. To be specific, my film is scheduled on Programme 9, 7 August, 10.30pm-12.30am.
I would like to think that somehow I still am a Buddhist even though it has been a while since the last time I committed Thai Theravada Buddhist ritual, possibly on my Birthday in Thailand years ago. It is the philosophy not the practice that matters. And it shows on my works.
My latest short film, Memory of You | Reflection of Me, is selected for Reel to Real Short Film Competition. The competition is a part of Buddhist Film Festival as one of events in Buddhist Festival Month. The film will be screened along with other eight short films in the theme “It’s not about me”. The filmmaker will get a chance to talk about their film after each screening. And there will be the judge award as well as the audience award.
REEL TO REAL SHORT FILM COMPETITION (Session 2)
2:15 pm – 4 pm, Saturday, 15th May 2010
The Footbridge Theatre, Glebe
Please check their website for full program and purchase tickets